Back to business.

So I'm back at the hosital after a very nice extended weekend with the kids. Going home was much needed, not only for me but also for the kids. They were back to normal and driving me crazy and spilling stuff and crying and laughing and hugging in a matter of seconds of me being home :) It was exactly what I needed to get me through the next week. I am starting to get a little anxious and stressed and overwhelmed and a hundred other things right now. I can tell the kids are starting to get the same way with me gone all the time. Brody has always been a little scaredy cat but it seems worse, he won't even go to the bathroom alone. And Mia well, most people could describe her as a terror haha. They just need consistancy and right now, nothing in their life is very consistant. So, I think the both of them are just doing things because of that. And to think that dealing with your husband having Cancer is bad enough, I also have to deal with my parents getting a divorce. It has been a very tumultuous year for them and now the end is here. I will spare you all the gory details but overwheling doesn't come close to descibeing life right now. I see all the fun that other people are having IE; vacations, girls night out, date nights, crafting and I become so envious. I know our day will come but man, I wish it was soon! I would honestly consider myself very strong and resilient and I pride myself on keeping my emotions in check but I am sick of being strong and resilient. I want just one day, where the worst of my troubles are the kids spilling a glass of milk or the store not have the right bread or being late for an appointment. One day. I know it will come. I just need to keep my head up. I swear though, when it rains, it pours!
Ok, Ok enough complaining... on to something important. Donnie. He is on Day 5, halfway done. He's actually doing surprisingly well, he hasn't lost his mind yet! I thought for sure he would be going stir crazy by now but he's been doing fine. The being sick part has passed and he has been feeling ok, he feels tired and wore out but the nausea and vomiting seem to be over. He has a pretty bad rash on his head, face and chest, which have been driving him nuts. It's super itchy. They give him benadryl at night to help with the itching but not in the day because he would be out of it all day. So he's kinda just dealing. He also has a few mouth sores in his mouth and throat from the high doses of chemo, which they can't do much for. It's just part of it. He rinses with this certain mouth wash throughout the day to keep them at a minimum. They said good oral care will help them not get really bad. They were able to take him off the heart monitor on Saturday {which was much longer than it was suppose to be} and his blood has been fine ever since. He became neutropenic on Saturday so everyone that comes in his room needs to wear a mask {yes, me too. BOO.} At first, it was incredibly irritating to sit with a mask on, but now I'm use to it so it's no big deal. As for now, he is just relaxing and recoving and waiting for all of his counts to start coming back up to normal. He is in good spirits and is looking forward to being out of here!
We have appreciated everyone's prayers and good thoughs and kind words. They have meant the world to us!