WOW!! How ironic is it that my last post was about staying consistent and then I don't make another post for six months? Oh well. Life has been busy! It's like we've been making up for lost time because we've been nothing but going since Donnie has been better. It's what made me want to post again. Yesterday as I was getting the kids ready for school, I looked at the date and realized one year ago, (just a few days late), we were in the ER when they found Donnie's facial lump. I completely forgot that it had been that long. It's funny because I had this overwhelming feeling of gratefulness and happiness. Even one of the teachers at school said, "you're awfully smiley today!" And I was, I was happy. Some days it feels like all of that stuff was decades ago and other days it feels like yesterday! It's been a whole year since it felt like my whole world was caving in on us, a whole year since complete despair and uncertainty. A year ago, I could have never imagined the place we are right now. A place where our days aren't consumed with doctors appointments and pain and medication and sadness and fear of death. Instead they are filled with laughter and birthday parties and swimming and potty training and life! I couldn't be more grateful to get a second chance at living the life we want to live with our family. Trust me, there had been many times when I didn't think I'd be able to come out of it unscathed, but we did. And there will always be a part of me that will never forget the pure blessing of health and life, because I will never forget that he was almost taken away from me. Donnie and I are like every other married couple out there, we argue and we disagree and sometimes we even take each other for granted, but in the end we experienced something together that we could never forget. There are so many times that I asked myself, and I'm sure Donnie as well, why are we going through this? What did we do? And after a whole year of asking myself that, my only answer is, that's life! Life is filled with challenges and struggles that make you the person you are. I learned so much about myself and my relationship and my friendships and parenthood and strangers and patience and love through this last year, that I don't think 70 years of no struggles would have taught me! As a sit, staring at this computer, I can't help but think that everything I prayed and hoped for a year ago, is everything I am living today. Sure, my kids drive me crazy sometimes, we have medical bills coming out our ears, Donnie and I disagree about ridiculous things and just daily stay at home mommy stuff, but at the end of the day I have a husband that is alive and healthy and Cancer free. I have kids that make me laugh every single day and I have the most amazing, supportive family and friends. And a year ago, I could have never imagined this kind of happiness for myself!
Our life has been chaotic and busy and amazing these last 6 months. Brody, Mia and Donnie all celebrated birthdays in July. Donnie's brother, Micheal and Logan got married. We found out we are going to have a new nephew and niece both due in November :) My parents got divorced. Mia started preschool for her very first year. Life is crazy and beautiful all the same time and I'm just thankful that I still have all the ones I love to share it with!
